This Is Weird

Today has been a weird day already. I'm not quite sure what to do with myself.

For several years now, I have looked forward to the 'empty nest' as all of my kids were at school all day. Though I haven't quite hit the all day part, I have hit the all my kids in school part. I have always looked forward to the days full, of MY time. Not having much to do, but organize my house, read lots of books and generally bask in the quiet that is my house.

Well, things didn't quite work out the way I had been planning this fall. I sent all of my kids off to school, and I am no longer babysitting my sisters kids. So my house was supposed to be full of that quiet. And I suppose it is, I am just not here to enjoy it.

With my parents opening their store, I have started to work for them 3 days a week. I really didn't think it would be too bad, and it isn't, it's just that there is very little time left to do all of those things I wanted to be doing. I spend 3 days while my kids are at school working, then one day a week, every other week, volunteering in the Kindergarten at school. This really leaves me Fridays to get everything done, that I need to do. Then I find myself running like a mad person to try to accomplish everything.

Well today, I had planned as usual to go to the Kindergarten to help. I ran for a short 15 minutes on the treadmill to at least get some sort of exercise in today, and showered and left for school. Upon my arrival, I realized that today was not my day to help. There was already another mom there reading with the kids. So the teacher quickly dismissed me to be on my own today.

Slightly frustrated with myself, I came home, realizing that I could have spent a longer time on the treadmill, or even could have gone to the gym and really gotten my workout in. But I decided that I would take advantage of the rest of the morning. But now... What to do.

My list is sooo long of things that I NEED to do, and then there's the other list of the WANT to do's, that I can't narrow it down. So, here I sit blogging. I have started a load of dishes, and a load of laundry. So, I can look like I've been somewhat productive. But WOW, my houes is quiet and it's making me feel a little creeped out. I'm not sure that I've ever actually been alone in my house before...hmmmmm.

Maybe I'll go run some errands and stop to pick up lunch...or maybe I will just read a book ( wow I haven't done that in a long time). Maybe I should organize the bedroom closet, or mop the kitchen floor. Or maybe, just maybe, I'll sit here on the internet and waste all of the time I have left until I have to go pick up kindergarten carpool.