Consistent

The older I've become and the more I get to know MYSELF. I'm finding if there is one word that can describe me, it's INCONSISTENT.

Though I put forth MUCH effort. I cannot get myself to follow through on anything for more than a few days. It's the truth! I try... I set up new bedtimes for the kids, new rules for the house, new chore charts to help keep the house clean. And yet, a few weeks later, I find myself trying something new, because I cannot keep myself in check and consistent about following through with the things I had already decided to do. That is probably most of my problem even with loosing weight. I can do anything for a day or two. My brain works well enough for that 24 to 48 hour period of time, that I can remember to follow through. But beyond that, I cannot stick with anything.

My poor kids. I know I'm passing on my inconsistency to them. I want them to know how to complete something once they've started it. But sadly, how are they going to learn that, if their father and I (yes I did add him in there...he is absolutely as inconsistent as I am - I guess that's one reason we are perfect for each other) don't follow through. As parents we both try. We talk about it often. "We have to be consistent...We have to teach them..." over and over. We have the same conversation's so much that it's beginning to seem funny. I just can't figure out how to do it.

How do you stay consistent? Do you have a fantastic memory? Are you able to keep all of the balls in the air and not let one drop? or are you like me...the balls are dropping all around you and you can't seem to even catch one?

I guess that's what goals are for. I continue to try and I continue to fail, but I guess that's how we learn. And I only really fail when I stop trying.